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2009-02-16T14:03:00.001-08:00

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2009-02-16T14:02:00.001-08:00

2009-02-10T01:47:00.000-08:00

oh dear

i just wrote a nice long note at it has banished to cyber space because my computer just shut all the windows

hmmmmmm

its 4 in the morning.....i woke up at 3 and its not morning yet and i have only had 3 hours of sleep. This does not look good for a whole day of sewing and ironing.

I had a fun night it was filled with : laughing, layer dip, making fun of dressing outside your gender, god, flames, tears, eating, enjoying friends

I have started a new job, one week ago this wednesday

this is kind of a big deal because I have been working the same one for 2 years

I work at a bridal boutique. I get to sew, steam, iron and bead things and sometimes help customers

Its fun to be around pretty things again :)

good night

2008-05-10T20:09:00.000-07:00

right now i am on set of a short film called " interpersonalities" , im doing wardrobe so right now I have to do everythign from buying clothes, exchanging clothes for other clothes, buying new clothes, cleaning fake mint flavoured blood out of clothes....making people look good and alot of ironing, i am the queen of ironing right now i should start my own side ironing business

right now we have been on set for about 13 hours, i suprisingly still have a bit of energy but i slept for than 5 hours...i like this its fun there is alot of variety in my job alot of buying things at stores running around like a madwoman for frantically using tide to go pens to remove miscellaneous stains

right now this job makes me feel important , i am part of something creative, something that requires alot of work from many different people......

2008-04-04T08:43:00.001-07:00

this is going to be a short one

I am going to university today, sitting in on a philosophy lecture with Jason...its going to be fun ...i don't work until 1:15 so it will be somethign constructive to do with my time

califoronia was so much fun! my favourite park was universal it was so interesting and i got my picture taken with dora, not that i particularly am a fan but i am now the envy of the under 5 age bracket everywhere...

we worked at a mission in downtown la for one day it was really cool, there was this guy there Bernie Mac who spoked to us and who has struggled with addictions. He told me " to be a good leader , you have to be a good follower first" this was after he was showing me how to prepare a plate and i said that i thought we knew what to do .....he he he gave me some attitude but it was more funny than anything!

off to school now!

2008-03-13T02:47:00.000-07:00

helllllllllllllllllo

well i have decided to revive my blog , for right now anyways the last time i wrote in it was a year ago...almost its funny to read posts refering to jason as " the new boy"

today my friend daryl told me that he read my blog , that was funny because i donn't think of anyone reading it mostly because i don't write on it but i guess anyone can access it it is the internet after all!

i am getting lots of ideas for fashion tonight i did some illustrations for about one hour which doesn't really sound liek a big deal i was tracing some flowers i found in a book but eventually got bored of that and then drew a picture of this girl half a face and then her hair was made of tiny squiggly mis-shapen hearts...i will have to post a picture later

yesterday we had shawn and her three adorable girls come over they are sooo cute we went swimming which was tons of fun but not nearly as entertaining as the after swimming part, charlie was rocking all the babies ( stuffed animals and dolls) to sleep and didn't want anyone to wake them up and reise was entertaining us with her cheerleading moves .....alicia, shawn ann me and mum just took it all in

i just woke up about 30 min ago and i couldn't get central america/costa rica the idea of going back out of my head....the next time i would be going there would be next january maybe...

i am going to california in a week exactly! I haven't been for 16 years! very pumped....i am going for spring break with a bunch of teenagers............ working with youth for christ

i am very pumped for the beach and the hanging out and the break from the retail environment....

2007-09-06T21:38:00.000-07:00

wow may 27th was the last post, i am a very unfaithful bloggie but i think i will start up this new habit because it seems like writing things down in good for the soul...

I just got a studio ( i am renting) which is really exciting it is pretty small about the size of a large-ish bedroom and is on the scond floor....there is no natural light which is rather unfortunate but i got a deal on it and i don't really plan on being there 24/7..i am working at my retail job alot ( about 5 days a week) considering I am planning on starting a business...

this week i was pondering going down to 4 shifts or 3 shfts a week i think i will try 4 shifts a week and see how that treats me because i need the stead flow of $ for the fabrics and rent etccc

this writing i have written feels very chemical and formal i don't know why i guess it is the updating sometimes there are not very interesting ways to say things and one must be factual

the combination of the fur highlighting the rugged denim jeans gave the allure of back alley, urban chic

the raw cut of the jean really gave the fur coat a rustic, urban feel

the allure of fur , combined with the raw practicality of the jean completes this look

fashion writing...so cheesy...so wonderful......kind of like when you see a picture of someone in a pink taffetta prom dress from the 80's

love,
Essie

2007-05-27T23:12:00.001-07:00

dear ---------

please take care of me. use one towel instead of two. When you are making tea use just enough water. When you go to the coffee shop of your choice, bring a travel mug or sit down and relax with a cup o tea and get it in a mug. give someone a hug today that needs it. when you see someone down and out, brighten up their day with a smile. love one another, . giggle out loud. share a joke. call your mum and dad. make funny faces in the elevator when no-one is watching.
sing out loud. pick a fresh flower and give it someone .recycle. make a healthy meal. don't believe everything you read. ( except this ) make art from junk that you find.imagine. think. read. and above all , smile.

love....

2007-05-13T15:19:00.000-07:00

spiritual connections....

i have been thinking about spiritual connections lately and how someone cultivates a spiritual connection with another human being....is it only through a small group type bible study...how do you just 'bring up' spiritual issues>

two major life changes.....

in the past two months i have found a job + a boyfriend

ha ha found i guess it makes it sound like i found those two things under a mossy rock...well not so my friends

today is mother's day, 2007....

may 13th the day before val's birthday...

today i went to the boy's church ..called circle drive alliance...it is fun but really big however the sermon today was really awesome...it was all about god's mission and our mission for our lives and how we go about finding out what that mission is and fulfilling it...

the first thing the pastor asked was what was at the center of our lives...

it was a confusing question for me

i generally feel there is no real centre put just a magnetic pull towards different centres of our lives

hmmmm

at first i was thinking god's mission for our lives is to love, to grow , to teach, to inspire eachother

however now i am thinking it is separate for all of us....

2007-03-16T18:21:00.000-07:00

back in bloggy land

i have not blooged since october...so i think 6 month or so..

I got back from Costa Rica almost 2 weeks ago...back to Saskatchewan

i got a job 5 days later which is pretty cool...it's just retail but it will be good ...i realized it's really silly to be looking for 'the job' while not working....

i have lots of decisions to make in the coming months but it seems i have to make them RIGHT NOW which can be daunting

I must decided if I am staying or going...I think

All my stuff is in Toronto right now and it is costing me $90/month to keep it there

If I move back to toronto i am going to incur a cost of $800 extra a month because of rent/food etc

however i love toronto in the summer when i am feeling good soooo much

i just love biking down bloor street to my store, the wind-in-the-hair- factor....going to 50's dance parties and shows hanging out with my husbie ( and when i say husbie i mean Val), going to Dutch Dreams, biking to church...the list goes on , i don't want to bore you ...not like a lot of people are reading this....

i miss my lovely friends in t. soooo much , and my baby, freedom and all the other mommas and papa

2006-10-02T13:02:00.000-07:00

a good deed gone wrong

ahhhh

beautiful fall colours round the sask berrie

as i took a morning walk back to the units condo from paw-paw's house i saw an elderly lady stuck off the sidewalk

hoping to be a good samaritan, i helped her roll back her walker andwith some luck and heavy pulling it started to move...however,she accelerated as I was rolling back and rolled over my left foot

"owwwwwwwwwwww" i screamed in pain as she sped away in her walker...

was i the victim of a drive-by

a good deed gone trangically wrong..

what was the lesson to be learnt here

hmmm one day i'll figure it out...

2006-09-25T11:12:00.000-07:00

finally i have time to revisit my bloggy as i am chillin' and illin' in the sask

well i have done so much since i have got here

grandma's big celebration was last night it was so great...the last thing i ate was chinese food....and now i am going to eat chinese food

the food of the asian is too hot to handle, can't have to much of it

going to broadway today which is the good shopping area of the saskaberry

yay there is a place called clothe cafe i am hoping o sell some stuff there by next spring

all fo now bloggy.....the dim sum awaits!

estie

2006-08-05T06:28:00.000-07:00

i missed you bloggy

we'll i have so much to say about the last month, i don't think i will get it all down in one go , as i have found out through my little val, i tend to be a bit of a rambler during e-mails and things of the sort

yesterday i started a new job sort of, it is a bar/resto that is owned by the same people as the current

it is in a latin dance / nightclub which i don't mind it is kind of fun to see people dancing it up and having fun.....BUT at the same time i want to dance when i am there and i have to work ...poooooo.....

but it is okay , last night was not as lucrative as was forseen by myself and others as it is the long weekend and toronto loves to get away for these kinds of things....

i am at the library so i must cut off thsi entry now....re-login to the computer and write mo'

love

2006-06-18T20:12:00.000-07:00

there is too much to write about in such a short time

i guess that is kind of like living.

living , especially in toronto you find or hear about all these cool , amazing things you want to do but there is never enough time to do everything

this weekend i really wanted to go to the short film festival because i love shorts

but i didn't get to ...and that is okay because there is always somethign else coming round the bend

i think i am really starting to identify with myself as a woman , which is good i think...because i am one

that sounded stupid..anyways

i will nto edit myself on my blog

i guess i often feel that i must stand up for the rights of women because i am one...

i think that sounds a bit wrong....i mean which to stand up for the rights of humankind as a whole and it really does bother me when certain groups in our society are not being treated equally or fair ( in my example/opinion women)

this is because everyday i walk out of my house i will be accosted by a man in a verbal manner

i bike down my street at 8 p.m...a group of young guys whistle

this does not make me feel pretty, attractive

but instead a well of anger builds up inside of me

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

why why why?

if i bite back i get called names...im sure you can imagine what the names are

this is sounding very venty!!!!

on the upside church tonite and after church hanging out time is amazing

i was biking home thinking about going home , came home and then saw i had no food

then went to rr and then decided to get take out and go home

then a small group showed up

good times

i could elaborate but i am sure you are tired of reading

2006-05-23T09:08:00.000-07:00

ahhh

the first post in months

not knowing who even reads this blog, i apologize for my absence

i still *feel* pretty absent from my own life, however it is time to take control of the situation

ahhhh i really should be applying for jobs, however i feel very unmotivated

my hungry stomach should be motivating me right now...

i would like to make this blog look pretty, it looks pretty generic right now i would have to say

yesterday i ate a nut

this may not seem like a life event to you, person who can consume a nut unless you are salyanne or ann

however, to me it was a life event

one of many life events one of many occurences in which i have carelessly, or not so carelessly injested a bullet that is a PEANUT

we were on the island of toronto, when i injested what i thought to yogurt covered juicy californian grown raisins

however, instead i heard a crunch instead of a squish noise

horror and panick struck me from my lips to my toes

the crunch....

i then was escorted by two beautiful, cool as a cucumber mates of mine

into a wooden cabin marked "first aid"
then in an ambulance
then in a police marine boat
then in another ambulance
then into a waiting room
then into a bed

2006-02-26T19:27:00.000-08:00

an interesting, witty subject escapes me right now.

okay so this week was really really crazy....

i felt a very "she's come undone" feeling about this week

however now i feel much better than before physically and emotionally and stuff...

tuesday through friday was crazy i felt the depression EXACTLY like last year and i was really scared

i am attributting it all to stress don't know if that is right or not

anyways im learning about it more and how to manage it , thank god

so i am just learning not to be scared of it so much realize it might come back in little spurts ( god willing) like this week

today was a wonderful day at the store and at church after, heather and elaine came in with some buddies they are too sweet

the store is looking really great..a full face lift from 2 years ago...so excited about the show!!!

oooh...tree of life...what what

bye lovers.

2006-02-20T08:19:00.000-08:00

most creative, most offensive, smartest....

this has been said to describe arrested development one of my favourite shows that got canned

if you have not seen this show you should see an episode or two

had cb this morning, i am super excited about

creating art + social event + rasing money for those in poverty

it's going to be really exciting!!!!!!

i think i will have a tshirt making party at my house

i talked to god last night..outloud...for kind of the first time...
it was really cool and thanked him for things in my life...and other stuff too

i love val! she is sooo special and i am so blessed to have her as a close friend...
last night we sang worship song's when we got home...so wonderful!!!!!

i am still sickie and dizzy but i feel as though i am getting better
had to go to the hospital on saturday..but at least no intra-venous

so yeah asthma attack yuckiness it is okay

so james and mattie created a blog for kristiann and i ...so exciting! they were telling us about crazy adventures....oh those boys...so many adventures !!!!!!

ooooh oooh reminds me to tell them that jenn young has a shirt with a wolf on it that says "living on the edge"

okay lovers...that is all for now:)

2006-02-11T20:41:00.000-08:00

so i am at school right now at 12:30 on a saturday writing my essay

so far it is like 5 pages long and i am just doing the summary part which is only supposed to be
like 2 pages long....editing...some editing will definitely have to occur

so i think about a total of 3 people know about my blog i will tell more though...in time

it is fun

except that i think i am always trying to convince myself to write in a journal ( i have one with a cat on it that my friend nicole gave to me in grade 4 that still needs to be written in)

now i dont think i will because i have this

the day was alright

me and kristiann made the yummiest dinner ever!

chicken with olive oil/honey rubbed with spiced with sauteed peppers and onions
with some sweet potato and some salade

c'est bon , c'est bon!

i decided that kids that speak french are the CUTEST things in the whole world

i met a little french girl today i tink she was bout 4

oooh oooh me and my friend from work made up a rap at work i will have to find it and post

why i gotta write
hope this paper's outta sight
on the topic
of women and the politic

estha from da hood

fashion magazines are horrid
i read today "belts are the new necklaces"

wtf...thats all i have to say

peace out homies

2006-02-10T17:40:00.000-08:00

trebuchet , i like the sound of it....i think it means to trip someone up in french , i remeber my french teacher whilst playing soccer practice " ne pas trebucher"

today was lovely , when i stepped outside it was all snowglobey outside

i am listening to sufjan stevens ( spelling) i dont know how to spell it

i think my prayers regarding job might becoming close to being answered , praise god!

i will change colours now

so i had to work at the china place today , it was so devastatingly boring

however i like the days when i wake up and think i am so glad to have legs..that is my first thought and then i am so thankful for everything like shouting in the open air , lying on grass, eating a super crunchy apple , laughing...life!

god i wish i could be this thankful everyday!

peace out

new hip hop name is da EP stitch-uation

boy i wish i had made that one up!

2006-02-07T16:38:00.000-08:00

pho real

falafel....hmmmmmm....falafel....

this is the colour of the shirt i made yesterday

this website is cool http://www.beehivecollective.org/

i worked today...yuck

somehow i had so much to say , and now i have gone and lost it all

amy is getting a chinchilla...i find this quite hilarious because it looks so much like a mousey

and she is deathly afraid of the mousey

as cheesy as it sounds, i believe the smile is a very powerful thing

we have a mouse in our house right now...it only comes out at night when val is alone doing projects

i think this mousey , let's call him Han Solo is great incentive for us not to do work late at night and procrastinate

2006-02-06T06:21:00.000-08:00

the follwing is a rap about ....the apparel Industry in Canada

In Canada…..that’s where we live…

Producin a wide range a products to give

All around the world meeting the needs of the consumer

A mixa product and innovation makes up supa

Using our skills to produce for specialized application

Making military clothes and uniforms all over the nation

Value –added products like fur coats and outerwear is our thing

Buildin’ the capacity of our firms in supply chain

marketing, product development, sourcin

so far

im a bit scared about performing a rap in front of 100 people i don't really know

oh well i like doing that kind of stuff...and im not really self conscious about making a complete fool of myself...always a good thing i say!

i was kind of thinking of being silent for a 24 hours period this week for this student movement thing to support the plight of african people

word of the day : plight

just got back from cb it was fun...i really want to start bringing stuff and asking opinions about it...because that's the point of it methinks the problem is time...

2006-02-02T12:42:00.000-08:00

shoulders hurt

attempting to download " love and mathematics"

the title sounds cool

wonder if it is a good song

hmmmmm

today in class..my teacher made it known ( again ) that she is a hardcore atheist

she said it is because she doesn't approve of any religion that forces it's beliefs on young children

i think she should have more of a reason to not believe in god than that

2006-02-01T11:58:00.000-08:00

i should be reading about the canadian apparel industry ...however i am exploring the world of the blog

hmmmmm

i have still not figured out how to post on the blog "wolf in toronto" so that's that i guess i will have to use a more direct form of communication

fonts are fun i found some awesome one's in some old magazine's the other day

i know i am not supposed to want of material goods...but i really want a camera!!!

a camera would be nice...to take photos...what a blatant and obvious comment

i would much rather read women and politics that about the canadian apparel industry....i think i have taken this class every year here

rode the bike to sckool today how very pleasant...except i percieve more when i am walking

2006-02-01T10:53:00.000-08:00

Wolf In Toronto: January 2006

hey...did i finally figure out how to post on here?